... that's all I used to see when I would go on tumblr and run across this, or gifs of that scene. It was just two very sad-looking people, both of them hugging a wall. The girl way crying and makeup was all over her face. The man looked pretty upset too, but I had no idea why and didn't particularly care.
That is, until I started to watch Doctor Who.
I loved Nine, and Ten. What really struck me about both of them was that they were so alive, so happy when they were around Rose. She was a sweetheart, too; I remember my sister and I used to joke that with Nine she was the comforter, since he wasn't too keen on emotional, crying people being near him. It was always Rose who held those who were crying, or tried to defend those that didn't have much of a voice. She even stopped him from killing a Dalek, one that she'd unintentionally given human emotions.
Ten was definitely a happier and more carefree Doctor, probably because of Rose and how she helped Nine. I think if I had to choose between the two Doctors (and I'm very hesitant at the idea) I'd say he's my favorite. The way he and Rose smiled at each other, how he would always hold her hand... but I'm going off on a tangent, and to be fair, Nine did all those same things.
My point is that Rose and Ten had such a close relationship, probably stronger than one between a lot of TV couples that are actually dating. I loved how they both understood how the other thought, and they could calm each other down when there was danger that seemed inescapable. Those little moments, like in "The Impossible Planet" when Rose suggested she and the Doctor might share a house, or how in "The Idiot's Lantern" the Doctor lifted Rose off her feet and spun her around because he was so happy to see that she was okay. Seems like the two of them were always hugging, or laughing about something.
"Army Of Ghosts" was bad, mostly because it began with Rose saying it was the story of how she died. I'd known, from a friend telling me, that she eventually left Ten, but I had never imagined it would be death. I got teary when she said that, and kept hyperventilating every time she was in danger. I prayed the Ten would stay by her side the entire time and keep her safe.
Finally came "Doomsday" and I remember that I kept telling myself she was still fine, and she would stay that way. Jackie and Pete were reunited, Rose was with the Doctor again; what could possibly go wrong?
When they were pulling the levers that would destroy the Daleks and Cybermen I started to get it. There was a white wall, and I thought that Rose would be pulled through to the other side. I remember starting to cry because I was so sure she would really be dead. When her father saved her I wasn't sure if I should be happy or cry harder.
It was then that I finally got the picture, the many ones I'd seen on tumblr. The heartbreaking music, Rose crying and banging on the wall because she wanted to go back to her Doctor, while he stood there with this look of unimaginable pain and loss... I cried for hours.
Now when I see those gifs, I tear up. The words "Bad Wolf Bay" depresses me in seconds. I've only seen Doomsday twice, and the second time was more painful than the first, leaving me curled up on the couch sobbing hysterically and trying to breath (you know, in a good way).
Even though it hurts, I'm glad that I know how significant that picture is, because it's part of one of the most beautiful friendships of all time.
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